I've been silent for a few months. I hadn't decided on which direction to take this blog. Should I make it a traveling blog? A random blog? A blog about myself?
I think I've finally decided to go with the fitness route. What about a regular old fitness blog about what I'm doing, how I'm doing it and I'll throw in some recipes and exercises we can all do? Does that sound good?
One of my New Year's resolutions was to focus on my fitness and actually get somewhere in my life. I think I'm getting there. I'm 90% on the personal trainer boat. I am SO CLOSE to signing up for the course and becoming one. The 10% that is holding me back is fear. What happens if I fail the practical & written exams? I do NOT like to fail, it's embarrassing and depressing. I know I'm second guessing myself, after all, I may *not* fail.. and how do you succeed if you never try something? Yes, there is a chance I could fail but there is also the chance that I could pass and become successful. I do understand this, yet, I'm still afraid.
I've been into fitness when I was in my early 20s. I used to ride my mountain bike and roller blade (does anyone do that anymore? haha). I'd go for long walks with my mom back when I lived at home or I'd hike. I will admit that I didn't do this stuff daily because I was young and dumb and didn't see the importance of eating healthy and exercising daily. I just thought since I was naturally thin that I didn't *have* to do that stuff. I wish I had known what I know now, oh well.
Needless to say I got into real fitness in 2008. I had my son in 2006 and gained 30 lbs. I lost all the weight but 10 lbs. It was a little unsettling but he wasn't even 6 months old so I wasn't that worried with it. When he turned 7 months I went on a hormonal birth control and ballooned out 20 lbs in less than 6 months!! My poor body went through the stretching out of pregnancy weight gain and then soon after went through the same weight gain (in less time) from my new birth control. It was awful and I became depressed.
I wasn't over eating and I couldn't lose any weight. I finally started truly exercising (when I was sans baby) and the weight wouldn't budge. I finally realized the weight gain came around the same time I had this new birth control. I finally asked my doctor to change my birth control and she was hesitant and said my weight gain was *not* from my birth control but from my apparent over eating. How would she know if I were over eating or not? Did she live with me? No. I informed her I was NOT over eating and she finally changed my birth control.
Within a few weeks I finally started to lose a pound or two. I was HAPPY because I could not seem to lose weight before then. Turns out I was right, it *was* my birth control! Anyways, I managed to lose 10 lbs on my own and then I joined Jazzercise and I dropped 20 lbs dancing. It was a fight but I lost the weight I had gained. If I can remember correctly I believe I hit my goal weight (to be in the low 120s) by late 2009 or early 2010. I managed to stay 122-124 for almost a year and half but I got sick this past October with pneumonia and after I got better my weight jumped to 130. I now fluctuate from 130-132 and I've been this weight since January. It's DISTURBING because I know I *can* be 123 and I'd like to be that weight again but for some reason I can't shake the weight.
I am now on a new journey to blast these 7-10 lbs away. I hate being 132, I look chubby (I'm short) and I just feel gross with my appearance.
Join me on my quest to lose these pounds and establish long term lifestyle with fitness and healthy eating being a top priority.
My goal is to lose the weight and NEVER gain it back, ever again.
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